I completely understand you Christine. My other half keeps telling me "I've changed", but bloody hell , how can you stay the same, with all that has happened in the past 4 years 😖. I struggle to be honest. "Waking up" was, on one hand, a blessing, but on the other hand, like having a heavy weight on my shoulders. My children and grandchildren are my reason for going forward. But deep inside me, something is broken. 😟
I had some of the same thoughts some time ago. Similarly had also moved to a country where there is sunshine, and although the sun shines on most days, more than enough to elevate your mood, the recent "pandemic" which has highlighted the worst in people has also cast a large cloud over humanity, changing outlooks. Fortunate enough not to have any concerns about my own welfare, my thoughts were on the state of various populace, which is by all accounts depressing. So I turned back to the church I had ignored for some 50 years, in order to find some good in the world. I can now compartmentalise the evils I perceive, and have a new and brighter outlook. Yes, it's possible that my new friends have come my way by coincidence, nothing at all to do with religion, but please don't ignore His power, because as the saying goes, He works in mysterious ways.
Indeed, yes. the way forward is muddied by what can't be unseen. Until I know the way, each day is like a march in the dark in the lower Manhattan 9/11 dust cloud, towards the water, mouth and nose covered, eyes barely open, hand on a shoulder in front of me hopefully, to the river side.
I completely understand you Christine. My other half keeps telling me "I've changed", but bloody hell , how can you stay the same, with all that has happened in the past 4 years 😖. I struggle to be honest. "Waking up" was, on one hand, a blessing, but on the other hand, like having a heavy weight on my shoulders. My children and grandchildren are my reason for going forward. But deep inside me, something is broken. 😟
I had some of the same thoughts some time ago. Similarly had also moved to a country where there is sunshine, and although the sun shines on most days, more than enough to elevate your mood, the recent "pandemic" which has highlighted the worst in people has also cast a large cloud over humanity, changing outlooks. Fortunate enough not to have any concerns about my own welfare, my thoughts were on the state of various populace, which is by all accounts depressing. So I turned back to the church I had ignored for some 50 years, in order to find some good in the world. I can now compartmentalise the evils I perceive, and have a new and brighter outlook. Yes, it's possible that my new friends have come my way by coincidence, nothing at all to do with religion, but please don't ignore His power, because as the saying goes, He works in mysterious ways.
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Indeed, yes. the way forward is muddied by what can't be unseen. Until I know the way, each day is like a march in the dark in the lower Manhattan 9/11 dust cloud, towards the water, mouth and nose covered, eyes barely open, hand on a shoulder in front of me hopefully, to the river side.