I can't say how the rest of you feel, but I've always been proud that I was a member of and part of our Human race
How do you cope and keep yourself on track, seeing all and still remaining positive, for your future?
I can't say how the rest of you feel, but I've always been proud that I was a member of and part of our Human race and I remember when I was a kid that sailing barges used to ply along the Norfolk Broads in England and a kid I was in school with, had parents who ran a fleet of Canal Boats carrying goods along the Canals of England and they had one or two which were drawn by horses and that was normal back then, but just after World War 2, 1950's I suppose, and look what we have achieved by today.
I left England many years ago to find somewhere else to live overseas and call home and although I tried out a few countries before I found one I really liked and where
I call home now, it never rains like it did in England and it does not snow either, so win/win in my book and the natives were friendly and always have been, so, frankly I've had a great life, although I've had my up's and down's, because I never wanted an easy life, as I felt that with hard times, comes experiences both good and bad and the reason I'm here, was to have those experiences and learn skills from them, I could take over to the other side, when I died.
But these vaccines and what they have done, or are doing, I feel like potentially, the World I live in, is potentially imploding and the purposes I had for being here and enjoying the life I've had, seems to have been for nothing, if I eventually die from a World where many have died before me, in the next few years and all of my concepts have been obliterated by the greed of a few, to take what we had for themselves - but if they are vaccinated too, then even they probably won't be around much longer either - shudder.
I was brought up by my parents and my father was in the RAF, something to do with Bloodhound Missiles, but not Thor, the intercontinental ballistic missiles aimed at Russia and every now and again the sirens went off and we expected incoming intercontinental missiles from Russia would blow us all away - my father used to run off to some secure bunker leaving my mum and me there, to welcome the incoming missiles unprotected - but after a while, even the sirens did not matter, we got used to them going off and nothing ever happened and yes, it was a drill each time, but it was scary at the same time too.
I remember the Cuban missile crisis well, Kennedy was prepared to go to nuclear war against the Russians if they did not remove their missiles pointing at America, from Cuba, which the Russians eventually did, but that was a close run thing. I remember Diana dying, she was so young, what a waste.
Truthfully, I feel like my guts have been ripped out of me, all the reasons for my long life are at risk, not from anything i've done, but others, starting off with Trump and finishing off with Biden, not in America, the seat of the whole bloody thing, but that which has spread around this wonderful planet of ours and into all of the races which occupied it, so that eventually, possibly, nothing much will be left, worth a shout for.
I want to move forward, but I seem locked in this perpetual circle, or nightmare, from which I can't escape and it in turn pacifies me and makes me despondent, because I can't really see the purpose of why I've lived this long, or where I want to go next, where, post vaccines, there does not seem to be anywhere much left, which has not been affected by them, in some way, or other.
I have lots of hobbies to do, to be creative, but for what or whom, if, in the fullness of time, few, if anyone, will ever get to see what I created, after I have died, a bit like a poor Rembrandt if you like, the art of the artist, for others to enjoy after the artist has died, but he had purpose and now I don't, thanks to these vaccines and all who push them and those few of us left afterwards, if The Great Reset beomes reality, then my life will have been for nothing, pretty much.
I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't and at the moment, I can't seem to see any way forward, only what has passed and the joys I had, in its passing.
I wonder if there are any others of you out there, who feel much the same as I do?
How do you cope and keep yourself on track, seeing all and still remaining positive, for your future?
Christine.
I completely understand you Christine. My other half keeps telling me "I've changed", but bloody hell , how can you stay the same, with all that has happened in the past 4 years 😖. I struggle to be honest. "Waking up" was, on one hand, a blessing, but on the other hand, like having a heavy weight on my shoulders. My children and grandchildren are my reason for going forward. But deep inside me, something is broken. 😟
I had some of the same thoughts some time ago. Similarly had also moved to a country where there is sunshine, and although the sun shines on most days, more than enough to elevate your mood, the recent "pandemic" which has highlighted the worst in people has also cast a large cloud over humanity, changing outlooks. Fortunate enough not to have any concerns about my own welfare, my thoughts were on the state of various populace, which is by all accounts depressing. So I turned back to the church I had ignored for some 50 years, in order to find some good in the world. I can now compartmentalise the evils I perceive, and have a new and brighter outlook. Yes, it's possible that my new friends have come my way by coincidence, nothing at all to do with religion, but please don't ignore His power, because as the saying goes, He works in mysterious ways.